智慧......愚笨

如果我们放眼从累生历劫去看，那么一切的众生，
谁不曾做过我的父母、兄弟姊妹、亲戚眷属？
谁不曾做过我的仇敌冤家？
如果说有恩，个个与我有恩；如果说有冤，个个与我有冤。
这样子我们还有什么恩怨亲疏之别呢？
以智慧愚笨来说，
人人有聪明的时候，也有愚痴的时候，
聪明的人可能变愚痴，愚痴的人也可能变聪明。
最坏的人，也曾做过许多好事，而且不会永远坏；
好人也曾做过许多坏事，将来也不一定会好。
如此反覆思索，
所谓的冤亲、贤愚，这许多差别的概念，自然就会渐渐淡了。
这绝对不是混沌，也不是不知好坏，
而是，要将我们无始以来的偏私差别之见，以一视同仁的平等观念！
不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，
也不要因为小小的恐惧，忘记了别人的大恩。

我的心想说... ...

多讲点笑话，以幽默的态度处事，
这样子日子会好过一点。
你需学会接受，因为接受比抱怨还要好，
对于不可改变的事实，
除了接受以外，没有更好的办法了。
来是偶然的，走是必然的。
所以你必须，随缘不变，不变随缘。
韵丝，时间总会过去的的一天，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！

承诺

我承诺过自己要把保护她，守护她的担子给放下，不是吗？！
是时候放手给回她的他，过去的就让它过去吧！！
但是，为何？
当遇见回她时，我心中还是有那股冲动，忘了对自己承诺过的话...
难道，这一辈子我注定要守护着她... ...
就算把自己弄的遍体鳞伤，也要继续吗？？

A Letter tO mYselF

Dear Victoria,

 

You know what? I feel tried. You always said that you know many things, but don't know why you can't practise it. Do you know where the problem is? The problem is you don't dare and you don't want. I think maybe it's because your low level of self confident. You can't take "I know all these but I don't know why I can't do it" as excuse to escape from the problem. Please don't think that anyone of your friends can understand or read your mind 100%. I can tell you that no one can do it unless god. They might very clear about your characteristic, but they can't read your mind and of course they can’t choose for you.

Don't choose to beg the people around you but choose for your own good. However, choose the minimize the suffer of the people. Sometimes you feel suffer; uncomfortable, directionless and helpless, you hope someone can help you to escape from these. But how you going to escape if you don't run yourself? Don't you think that it's more painful when you are pulled by others without walking?

The End And Another Beginning

h yeah... the final exam has ended finally!!!
Semester break, I'm coming!!!
My course is the last to finish all the subject exam. Haih...
Another courses almost finished early and back their hometown.
So that why, this few days, Kampar is so quite... So scary loh...
I a bit worry about my first semester results in University.
Because I don't think I done well in some of the subject exam.
I do really scare I need to repeat some of the subject. =3
But its already over... I cannot change anything.
So,I'm now trying hard not to think it 1st...
I wanted to enjoy my 2 weeks+ semester break 1st...
KL... I'm back to play around again... haha...

However, I feel a bit upset too... I don't know why...
Maybe I miss something... people...
Maybe my emo comes...
Worry that happiness will not longer again,
Worry things and people will change in sometimes.
I do hope to cry out loudly and alone. T.T
Maybe this can make me release my emo...
Or I should laught loudly to relax...
I had no idea...

During the final exam, my life like a zombie life.
Although tried and pressure, left many memories to me also la...
With a friend, Adeline chat each other almost whole night.
Funny is I know this friend not longer than 1 month,
but so many topic to chat... haha..
Feel sorry to her also,because let her become zombie too. >.< I think Adeline won't blame me, right? haha You next semester also not in Kampar le... Don't miss me wor!? You need to gambateh during training in KL wor... Wait you come back Kampar and I accompany you watch sunrise. Wish you all the best la!!!

mY first presentation in Universtity (part 2)

Wow... all girls and boy look like office ladies and office boy...
Everyone wear formal during the presentation week.
Girls pretty and beautiful... Boys handsome and charming... haha..
Hope to see they wear again...

mY first presentation in Universtity (part 1)

Is been a tried month on Aug... because in a day i almost have 2 presentation..
Although is tried, I also feel happy of it.
Because let me improve my skills
and also not need to wear so formal in a few day... haha
Wearing so formal in Kampar do really very hot.. keep sweat..

~to be continue~