A Letter tO mYselF

Dear Victoria,

 

You know what? I feel tried. You always said that you know many things, but don't know why you can't practise it. Do you know where the problem is? The problem is you don't dare and you don't want. I think maybe it's because your low level of self confident. You can't take "I know all these but I don't know why I can't do it" as excuse to escape from the problem. Please don't think that anyone of your friends can understand or read your mind 100%. I can tell you that no one can do it unless god. They might very clear about your characteristic, but they can't read your mind and of course they can’t choose for you.

Don't choose to beg the people around you but choose for your own good. However, choose the minimize the suffer of the people. Sometimes you feel suffer; uncomfortable, directionless and helpless, you hope someone can help you to escape from these. But how you going to escape if you don't run yourself? Don't you think that it's more painful when you are pulled by others without walking?